Emotions.

Emotions. I would argue they have to be one of the most powerful phenomena in the world. They have no pattern, no presence as such, they are entirely illogical most of the time. 

I used to cry all the time, and why? Well you tell me. Because someone was nasty, because someone was kind, because I felt lost, because I was found. 

Think about how many people you see everyday. The friends and family, and the strangers you pass on the street, all on your own paths, only joined by these brief encounters. How many do you walk past and really see? Does it not overwhelm you that so many people you will see in your day are actually unable to express their emotion.

Hands up if you’ve ever smiled when inside you want everything to just go away, so you can be alone and cry until your soul aches. 

Hands up if you’ve ever pretended to be upset to get something from someone.

Hands up if you’ve ever faked an orgasm because you didn’t want to hurt your partners feelings.

Tough ain’t it, emotions are these overpowering ‘sixth senses’ we all have and yet despite millions of years of evolution, we’re all still too stunted to express anything. Of course many will blame society, but society can only push a person so far, you would not be just another conformer unless somewhere subconsciously that’s what you always wanted to be.

I’m not saying we should all gallavant around crying and giggling and frowning, willy nilly,  that is not logical either, and would most likely end up in tears (excuse the pun) I simply ask this one thing of you, the people of this planet, just promise me, you’ll be honest about your emotions with yourself. If you want to smile because today has been the best day of your life, then feel that happiness, let it pulsate through your body, your heart, your mind. Let it  take over you. And if you want to scream and cry and shout , and you feel so angry and hurt with the world, then let that overwhelm you also, embrace all the anxiety, and then show it whose the fucking boss. 

It just upsets me to think we could all be passing through life and not experienceing enough of how it really makes us feel.

And please, one last thing, if you keep everything else pent up inside, please do not keep love in. Let it out, spread it, tell someone today that you love them. It could change someones world.

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Let’s Go Back To The Start.

Hello there to you all. My name is Layla Sitton. I am 18 years old, I work full time since leaving school half way through my A levels and I am simply trying to seek a good life for myself and those I care for.

That’s about all the information you need for now.

I am a frequent user of Tumblr and Blogger, but I really want to start a ‘proper’ blog, in the hope that one day I can make a career out of writing (as before I quit school that was the plan, English A Level, English at Uni, then journalism) I am also rather unhappy in my current job, and am just looking for a way to get this career I seek, by doing something I love.

For starters, here are the links to my two other, current blogs.

http://growingpainsnothingmore.tumblr.com/

http://layla-sitton.blogspot.co.uk/

Perhaps you might want to take a look at the sort of material I post, and can even give me your feedback on what parts you like/don’t like, so I know what bits to explore more of, and perhaps which parts I need to let go of. The ‘blogspot’ blog was my first ever blog, and it holds some of the most delicate information about myself and it did take a lot of courage for me to share some of it.

I think possibly the most important thing you should know about me is that, I don’t think I’ve ever been normal. Since I was young I have always felt more connected with everything, people, books, music etc. So that was my first reason to start my first ever blog, so I could let some of this extra emotion out. But the second most important thing you should know about me is that I got into a very serious relationship at aged 14, and I was stuck with a monster for nearly 3 years. I do not want to bore you with all the gory details, but that relationship, the break-up and my survival of the aftermath, lead me to feel some very strong things, and through out this time, and the relationship itself, my blog became my one place to voice these things without being judged.

I want this blog to however, be my fresh start, my chance to get a clean slate and just write, because well, I do love to write, as I’m sure many of you other bloggers do also.

So here it is, my first entry in my new blog, for my fresh start.

Lets see where this takes me.

This is me.
This is me.

Layla